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New colors!

A fifteen-year-old in Huntsville, Alabama kicked the bucket by suicide in the wake of being tormented for being gay. In 2018, it was a seven-year-old in Denver, Colorado. There have been and will be some more. For these numbers, I’ve decided to write on this topic. I am not sure if my topic is to inform about gender and sexuality or to deconstruct racism. Therefore, it is important to identify the difference between gender, sexual identity and sexual orientation. Gender is what you find between your legs or to be more specific what the shape of your genitals is. Sexual identity or what we call sexuality refers to what you really feel. Sometimes, you are female, but not feeling like that. We don’t know whether  it is actually abnormal or all of that was just our fault when we think there are only two colors in this world, blue for boys and pink for girls. However, sexuality is about your expressions, thoughts and entire feeling. Sexual orientation is the ghost, nobody likes ...

They are like friends, but with benefits

You may recently have heard about the term "Friends with benefits" and I'm so glad to show my experience with it.   Every time I hear this word I just remember this scene and with the same sounds! "They are like friends, but with benefits". If you look at the dictionary to fetch about the definition you will find that "a friend with whom one has an occasional and casual sexual relationship.", but here in Egypt and the girls living here we can't apply this term with the same definition. However, recently many girls received more than a request asking them to be friends with benefits. It seems like "Fake Relationships" When a guy is going to send you morning texts, ask you out, flirt, talk to you every day, go in occasions with you and buy flowers on Valentine's day. In the other side, the girl has to send texts, pictures, nudes and accept sexual calls and chats. I don't know why somebody goes on in s...

Mirrors! (Short Story)

April 24, 2017, In one of Koma's streets, a bunch of people found a killed man, about 40 years old. The man had silver hair color, with a black suit and a bullet in his head. he had no ID and no one has recognized him. Koma's people called the police to come quickly and start an investigation. The unknown man looks rich.   Date of the murder: April 23, 2017. March 1996. A smart young man is waiting in the hostel/dorm rooms of Cambridge University. The   guy is nervously biting his nails until there is a warning voice calling his name: -Mr. Walter? -Mr. Walter? = Yes, Madam. -Mr. Jacob is waiting for you in the office. = Thank you, Madam. Good afternoon Mr. Jacob I'm Walter Dorn. - Take a seat, Mr. Walter. ( Jacob start to read through Walter's Resume) - Well, you are such the genius ! (Walter smiled at him) -Okay, Mr. Walter. According to your GPA and social awareness which look perfect, we are honored to give you our scholarship to be a ...

What If your ex is the most famous one in the hall

If my ex is well-known for most people around or he is a celebrity I may kill myself. People around are going to talk about him all the day. Most of them are observing his reactions. What matters if that guy is smart or handsome in this case you're done and your day is possibly off. If you were lucky someday and were apart of any women's community, you will probably notice how they act with smart guys and how many tales you are going to hear about him and his history. What really hurts is that you are forced to accept his existence and treat with his acts very well because you are watched and your motions are recorded. You may hear many stories about yourself as you were the ex-lover even they don't know your name or if you are one of those few whose relationships are open and everyone contributes to its events, you are dead. That is why I always prefer introverts. introverts may love you a lot but nobody notices that. You may be lucky if you can conceal yo...

In love with your bestie?

Few weeks ago I received a question on my  ask.fm  account from someone who falls in love with his/her best friend. In the first time the question scares me! I've never expected that someone can love his best friend in this way. In the same week, I've fallen in love with my best friend. I don't know how I made this kind of mistake. This kind of love maybe the purist love ever. When you choose to love your best friend, the one you spend most of your time with, it is difficult to explain but it is harder to conceal. When you love your best friend you admire his bad before his good. You've seen the worst side of him, you know every mistake in his life, you know how hurts if you lose him and how meaningless is your life without him. Is it wrong to love him? Indeed, you don't feel you instantly love him, It is just occasional feeling. Sometimes you observe his eyes to make sure he will never look at anyone else but you. Sometimes else you try so hard to...

خواطر مشتتة ككاتبها

في ليلة ليست بالبعيدة كنت أتحدث مع صديقة لي وتشاركنا بعض الخواطر التي اعتدنا تدوينها حين نكتب  مذكراتنا أو حين نشعر بهذه الوحدة التي دوما تحاصرنا  إليكم بعض الذي وجدته كنت حينها في الصف الثالث الثانوي و كانت فترة عصيبة لا أقدر علي تخيلها ثانية في تللك اللحظات كنت أتغير، افقد ذاتي وما أعتادت نفسي أن تكونه فكتبت "وأصعب أنواع الخذلان هو أن تخذلك نفسك، أن تشعر أنك غريب عنك، ألا تكون ماكنت تظن كونك هو، وألا تفعل ما قيل يومًا أنك فاعله، لو أن نفسك خانتك فلا مفر من تعذيبها وليس الأمر بمحض إرادتك بل أنت في هذه بالجلاد والمجلود، فكأن قلبك بتفتح، فأعدل عن التشبث بأمور هوجاء كسيل بلا منحدر تتقاذفها الرياح لتعبث بها، تقبل نفسك" أغسطس 2015 *** أظن أني كتبتها حينما كنت علي وشك الرسوب ف أول عام جامعي لي، ولكن الله كان حليمًا بي وأدركني في ظلم الضياع وأحياني بعد مماتي -"لما قد تشتكي من المصائب معتقدًا أنها تخف بالحديث عنها؟ وعندما تصيبك بائسة تقول فيها  بعدما تمر هذه سأعود كما كنت، لقد أفنيت وقتًا طويلًا انتظر فيه أن تمر الفاجعة، ماذا لو أخفضت رأسي حتي تمر ال...

Only Human

Women Objectification in media.  It looks like a harmful title for such an article!  Through my short life I've seen myriad ads and TV shows which visualize women as gifts or prizes. Sometime else they made them as symbols for cultures, religions or life attitude. I don't even know if the outer world looks at us as humans, ordinary people or effective citizens!  I'm not talking about the Arab world right now. It's a worldwide look. Sometimes I feel it's true! I might be here just to serve man .   This kind of terrorism affects women's life style. Indeed most women tend to be clean, beautiful and smart, but when there is no place for any other issue in their lives, It is terrible. Their self-confidence breaks down. They actually think there is no place for them in mental or rational stuffs! We can observe the harmful influence of this kind of media and it is a movement to stop this activities damaging future communities.  ...