Be Sad, Be productive: How to make use of your depression

You may notice recently how I've changed from a happy person to a sad one and let's take a look at the progress that happened in my life and personality.
First of all, I know the difference between sadness and depression if you don't know, take a look!
In this topic I'm going to insert some tips and resources I hope you make use of them.

Until now, I'm just talking about myself, but I'm going to look for some resources that reinforce my dreary hypothesis. Everyone knows I live alone, but not totally alone. I'm a member of many gangs and groups. I like being with people. There is no shame in that.

Recently my timetable was full that I can't meet most of my friends and we rarely talk except 2 or 3 of them. When I felt so lonely, and instead of suicide, I've started watching and reading some profound DEPRESSED movies, books, and songs. Find the list.
I have no idea what changed in me. I just get used to that sad mood. It has been my steady state. I lose no energy trying to make myself happy. I spent no energy do anything. I just look at my schedule and do what I'm supposed to do. This is how life works. I wake up, I do my things, I go to training and back to sleep. Your meal will reduce, too. So it is a profound chance to lose some weight.

Now, I feel nothing literally, not in pain, not happy, not bothered, not changed. I just reached the point that no one can control my mood or my next action, even my exams result. It does nothing in my mood.
Sadness makes you, productive, interactive, intelligent and smart. I don't diminish the pain, I just give you a reason to see it in a different way.

Resources: https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/article/item/four_ways_sadness_may_be_good_for_you
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/compassion-matters/201507/the-value-sadness

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