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أحدُهم يَقتُل











  يرمقني أحدهم يحدثني بلسان أعوج قائلا "انتي تغيرتي أوي يا منة " ؟!

 أوليس من شيمنا التغير؟! أهو الركود ماتظنونه طيبا؟  أوليس كل يوم هو في شأن؟ وألسنا نسأل عن أحوالنا بما الجديد عندك وما الجديد لديك ... أوليس التغير هو الشئ الذي خلقنا من اجله؟!

-أحدهم يصور أشياء خفيفة كأنها جبال من المصائب فاتذكر بعض البشر قد يموتون جوعًا و قد يموتون قهرًا و يموتون مرضي.

-يسألني أحدهم لما لا تكتبين ف أمور العامة؟
أوليست فتنة ؟! ثم إن ليَ وجهة نظر. قد يكرهني لها البعض وقد يحبون، قد يكفرني أحدهم بسبب بعض المعتقدات و الاراء والجمل الحمقاء. فلا عجب ألا أكتب. ثم أني لا أفقهها كلَ الفقه و أري أن فتوة قد تهلك واستدعاء علمٍ يُمرض.

- يسأل أحدهم: أينبغي علينا أن نكون لطفاء؟!
إن تحمِلت فافعل. 
إن تحمَلت ظلم أحدهم لك و تكبره عليك و أنه طالما أذاك و حطمك.  لطالما قهرك - ولا يعلم قهر نفسك الا الله- إن تحملت أن تراه فتبتسم دون ان تجد ف قلبك حاجة فافعل. لكن لا تنافق.
 اقذفه بابشع الكلمات. تمني موته. أدعي الله أن يحطمه .يُذله ثم انهض و اجرحه قدر المستطاع . إن ظن أنه تغير فمن لك يعيد كسر قلبك؟!

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